my turn-ons include back massages, long walks on the beach, and Bucky Barnes straining so hard to project I’m Just Experiencing Normal Feelings While Having A Nice Drink With My Best Pal that his face becomes an agonized rictus
#I FEEL NOT AT ALL DEVASTATED BY ANYTHING I’VE BEEN THROUGH IN THE LAST 24 HOURS!!!!#I’M JUST HAVING A NICE CHAT WITH MY SUDDENLY TALL AND HANDSOME BEST FRIEND WHO IS HERE IN THE SHIT WITH ME INSTEAD OF SAFE AT HOME#AND FEELING REGULAR ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!#DEFINITELY NOT WORKING THRU ABOUT 60 KINDS OF GRIEF/ENVY/LOSS/RELIEF/TERROR/SELF-HATRED ALL AT ONCE#definitely not having a furious inner dialogue that goes “am i jealous of steve? am i second fiddle now?”#“wait does that imply that steve was ever second fiddle?? he wasn’t. i’m a FUCKING ASSHOLE! oh god he’s talking what is he saying”#“LAUGH”#bucky barnes#marvel#“have i been looking at him weird? is my face regular? what face do people make???”
I totally didn’t just come out of a torture chamber! I feel perfectly fine!! (I actually do feel perfectly fine which ISN’T ALARMING AT ALL NOSIREE) This tastes like alcohol but is obviously half water because it’s nOT WORKING??
#I WANT TO GO HOME BUT LIKE FUCK CAN I LEAVE THIS ASSHOLE HERE#HE WILL DIE#SO FUCK YOU STEVE#I AM GLAD YOU CAN BREATHE LIKE A HEALTHY PERSON#BUT MOSTLY IM REALLY ANGRY RN
So Bucky can sneak up on basically anyone because he was, you know, an assassin, and sneaking tends to be a skill assassins need. But for some reason, Steve always knows he’s there, and it drives him absolutely insane.
On more than one occasion, Steve’s been sitting at his desk drawing or writing emails or whatever for a while, and Bucky thinks, okay, this is my chance. So he opens the door and eases into the room. Silently. He stands there for a while, and Steve doesn’t say anything. And just as he’s starting to thing that this is it, it’s been fifteen minutes and Steve clearly has no idea, Steve will say something like “I was thinking of ordering in for dinner today, what do you think?” and Bucky wants to hit something.
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