every single post that says its ok to not wear makeup has like nine hundred replies saying “actually some girls LIKE the inescapable, crushing demand that they expend their money, time, and energy concealing and altering their natural features to better mimic an artificial and unattainable standard!!! leg contouring is girl power”
I wear makeup every single day and every time I go out in public. I hate every second of it. I hate that when I have a full face of makeup on customers are nice to me and strangers smile at me, but when I only have a “no makeup” makeup look on everyone is a rude inconsiderate asshole and they ask me if I feel okay and tell me that I look exhausted. I hate kids staring at my shitty skin when I’m not wearing full coverage foundation and their parents not telling them that staring is rude. I hate unsolicited advice from strangers about how I should try (insert off the wall remedy they saw on Pinterest one time). I hate that the world only treats me well when I look conventionally attractive. i hate that whenever I wear full makeup to work I get harassed by 70 year old men old enough to be my grandpa. I hate that I am constantly looking in a mirror. I hate that my makeup bag takes up valuable space in my purse. I hate every single dollar I spent on bullshit. I hate the fact that no color looks right on my skin. I hate that I have a mental breakdown every time I have an important event and my makeup isn’t covering what I want it to. I hate how pale my face is because it never sees the sun. I hate that I hate myself.
but you know…its self preservation. I don’t wear makeup out of vanity or arrogance. I do it because if I didn’t I wouldn’t be treated with basic respect and dignity. you could say I choose to do it, but is it really much of a choice? no.
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